Solandaran Reflection: Alexis

Hello once more, my dear friends.

A couple of days ago, I introduced you to the world of Solandara. It’s an epic fantasy story spanning multiple books. The series title will be Solandaran Legacies. All books in the series will feature one central character: the main protagonist. There will also be a central antagonist for the series. The roles of the two characters in their respective books will vary, depending on the needs of the story. For example, the first volume of the series, The Solandaran Flame, features the main protagonist, but only mentions the antagonist in passing.

Alexis Merrin is my series protagonist. When we first meet her, she’s a quantum physics professor on Earth. Her studies include the possibility of other worlds, but when she’s finally thrust into one, she has to learn to survive and adapt. Not only that, but she’s prophesied to be the Empress who will bring peace to Solandara. She will grow and mature through each book, but won’t actually take on the role of Empress. That won’t happen until I’m done writing about Solandara, and her closing arc will be her fulfilling her destiny.

Now, with all that said, I’m starting here with her because in some ways, she’s a mirror to me. There are still quite a few differences in personality and upbringing, but there are some things in her that I can identify with. It’s hard to put my finger on precisely what it is, but I guess you can say she, like the other characters in my stories, holds certain aspects of myself to the light and lets them breathe.

So, for your reading pleasure, here is Alexis Merrin.

Alexandra “Alexis” Merrin

    • Basic Information
      • Race: Chimera (Appears Human)
      • Genus: Chimera
      • Age: 28
      • Birth Date: January 13, 1997 (Arramor 13, 5997 SD)
      • Gender: Female
      • Occupation: Professor of Quantum Physics, PhD
      • Height: 5’6″ (167cm)
    • Physical Description
      • Build: Slender, average frame
      • Skin: Light, with minimal sun exposure
      • Eyes: Amber. Signifies direct lineage from the Empress
      • Hair: Brown, slightly wavy, worn in a ponytail, reaching mid-back
      • Voice: Clear and calm. Shows flashes of dry, sardonic humor under stress, often as a defense mechanism when logic fails.
      • Speech: American English (California)
      • Wings and Flight (She’s unaware of this initially)
        • Wing Type: Rays of light: ethereal, radiant, and intangible. Currently hidden.
        • Wing Color: Rainbow-hued, slowly shifting between colors. Currently hidden.
        • Wingspan: 7’0” (213 cm). Currently hidden.
        • Wing Status: Currently hidden; Alexis is unaware of their existence
        • Flight: Achieved through a combination of telekinesis and air manipulation; not yet accessible to her
    • Personality and Traits
      • Temperament: Reserved, introspective, intellectually curious, emotionally warm but socially distant
      • Core Values: Knowledge, truth, independence, integrity
      • Strengths:
        • Exceptionally intelligent and analytical
        • Down-to-earth and approachable despite her brilliance
        • Compassionate and dependable to those who earn her trust
        • Deep grounding in quantum theory provides a framework for interpreting seemingly impossible phenomena
        • Capable of finding scientific rationale in experiences others may view as mystical or supernatural
        • Able to articulate complex scientific ideas to non-experts with clarity and humility
        • Maintains composure and courtesy even in socially uncomfortable situations
        • Holds personal identity with quiet defiance, resisting labels or roles that don’t fit
        • Demonstrates composure under extreme, unfamiliar threat, able to assess and catalog details even while physically endangered
        • Adaptive communicator, able to attempt rapid simplification of speech in hopes of bridging a language barrier
      • Weaknesses:
        • Socially withdrawn and introverted
        • Struggles to form deep connections
        • Emotionally guarded and prefers solitude
        • Reacts internally to social discomfort rather than setting boundaries
        • Hesitant to accept recognition or external validation
        • Dismisses family expectations or sentimental traditions unless they align with personal values
      • Fears:
        • Losing control
        • Being unable to discern fundamental truths through science
        • Discovering truths that challenge her understanding of reality
        • Becoming unmoored from the laws of science that define her identity
        • Losing her grip on reality or descending into madness
        • Discovering that forces shape her identity and choices she cannot control or understand
    • Arcana and Abilities
      • Active Arcana:
        • Innovation (Specialized)
        • Latent Arcana (She’s unaware of):
          • Elemental Magic
          • Nature Magic
          • Psionics
          • Radiant Magic
          • Wind Magic
      • Abilities:
        • High intelligence and quick learning
        • Shape Shifting (Dormant)
        • Sixth Sense (Limited)
      • Limitations:
        • Powers are suppressed and dormant due to her upbringing on Earth
    • Relationships
      • Sarah Merrin (Mother)
      • Susan Merrin (Maternal Grandmother)
      • Bill Merrin (Maternal Grandfather)
    • Important Items and Facts
      • Platinum Chimera Ankh pendant worn on a silver chain; appears inert but is soulbound to Alexis as Empress heir
      • Amber eyes mark her as the last living heir to a forgotten divine bloodline

So, the bullet list that makes up Alexis at the start of the story. Things are listed there that she is currently unaware of, but are essential to her characterization. These are taken directly from my notes, with her timeline removed to avoid spoilers. Yeah, so I still had some spoilers in here, but nothing earth-shattering. I hope you enjoy this additional look into Solandara.

Legacy Reflection: Kat

Good to see you again, my friends.

The time has come, at last, to introduce you to Empress Katrina Arnasis. Kat to her friends, and KA9 to the one who created her. She was created to join a story in progress on a world called Eden. It was in the greater CrossGen universe that dealt with the stories of the First and the Secundae. At first, I didn’t know what kind of backstory I wanted for her, so I started her off as an amnesiac. While it was cliche, it worked. I was able to coordinate with the other players in the story to build an appropriate backstory for her, and her journey became one of literal self-discovery.

There are so many parallels in Kat’s story to my own. I was deeply buried at the time Kat was created. My shadow didn’t know I existed, but created Kat anyways. There was one scene written where she was getting dressed for a ceremony. Other women said it sounded like a woman’s experience, as if written by a woman. The shadow was giving me a voice, without realizing it. Then her transformations as her journey unfolds are almost prophetic of my own journey to acceptance.

Then you look at my new story of Solandara, as I mentioned a couple of days ago. There’s a prophetic Empress in that story that is a direct parallel to Kat. While the underlying story is quite different, the concept is the same. A woman, who doesn’t know the truth about herself, destined to become something greater than herself. Here I was, hidden, unknown, and destined to be seen by the light.

Kat is a combination of light and shadow. Solandara is a combination of light and shadow. I was once hidden behind the shadow and am now embracing the light. It seems appropriate that I share Kat with you now.

Empress of Eden

Race: Genetically Engineered Clone
Sex: Female
Age: Appears 21
Height: 5’8″ (1.72m)
Hair: Long Auburn
Eyes: Green

Appearance:
Kat is a young woman, appearing to be 21 years of age, even though she doesn’t know exactly old she is. Her natural hair color is auburn, and she typically keeps it long, slightly past the center of her back. Her natural eye color is a deep forest green color. Her appearance, though, can alter, depending on her mood or desire. She is able to alter every aspect of her appearance: her age; her hair, skin and eye color; the length of her hair; her weight (up to 50 pounds either way); her height (up to 3 inches either way); and even her apparent gender (appearance only). While she has this ability, she generally prefers to keep her natural appearance. Despite this ability, there is one feature that she can never change, and that is the black tattoo “KA9” on her right wrist, just below the palm of her hand.

Powers:
Kat was genetically engineered to be an assassin capable of killing First with her bare hands. For this reason, she was given several abilities to help her achieve her goals. These abilities do not draw upon Universal Energies, making her more difficult to discern from a normal human.

Chameleon – She is able to alter her appearance, as mentioned previously, to fit into her surroundings. With her grey jumpsuit, she can even change her clothing to fit her appearance.

Voice Alteration – She is able to alter her voice several octaves to match the appearance she has chosen.

Telepathy – She has minor telepathic abilities, which are more for scanning surface thoughts with communication possible. It is mostly used to gather enough information to help her blend into her surroundings. She can also detect other telepaths so that she can mask her telepathic abilities from them.

Enhanced Senses – Her senses have been hightened to supernatural levels. With little concentration, her senses can allow her to sense (see, hear, smell) things that are miles away as if she were there. Her enchanced hearing will also allow her to hear conversations through walls as if she were standing in the room. In addition, she is able to see in almost complete darkness. As long as there is a trace amount of light, she would be able to see as if it were dusk or even full daylight (depending on how much light is available to her).

Rapid Healing – Her natural healing far exceeds that of normal humans, even to the point of regenerating lost limbs and other body parts, over time.

Enhanced Strength and Reflexes – Her strength and reflexes are that of the First. Since she was engineered to be an assassin of the First, her strength and reflexes were engineered to fit that purpose.

More recently, through an unusual interaction with the light, shadow and reality eggs, she had gained additional powers. She hasn’t yet discovered the full extent of these new powers yet.

Shapeshifting – Unlike her chameleon abilities, this power allows her to completely alter her appearance as long as it is roughly within the same parameters as her chameleon ability (ie she can’t shrink or grow too much). She doesn’t gain new abilities with the shapeshifting, as this is cosmetic only. It is possible, though, that the physical aspects grant her additional abilities (such as wings for flight, or blade like hands). Her jumpsuit is also now a part of her, which allows her to alter her clothing to match, or completely make the clothes disappear (depending on the nature of the shapeshifting required). She even has the ability to strengthen her skin to that of near diamond-like hardness.

Angelic Form – By using the powers of shadow and light that are now a part of her, she is able to alter her physical substance, turning her matter from solid to an ethereal light and shadow combination. The amount of light and shadow, and its appearance, can vary depending on her desire. While in this form, she is impervious to physical harm, as any physical attack would simply pass through her (as she is literally just light and shadow).

Personality:
Despite the genetic engineering Kat has undergone for an undetermined amount of time, Kat rejects her training. She hates killing, and does everything she can to avoid it. It isn’t always possible, she realizes, and when necessary, will use many of the powers at her disposal to accomplish her task.

Kat has an air of innocence around her, despite what she’s been through. She is far from niave, but still strives toward purity in her life. She strives to be fair and just in all her dealings, even in the face of insurmountable odds. She knows she isn’t universally accepted as Empress of Eden, a title she didn’t seek for herself, but she still strives to treat all her subjects equally and fairly.

Kat loves and respects Millennium and Honor’s Angel, the First who took her in when she arrived on Eden, scared and without memories. Part of her desire is to please them and do good by them. In many ways, she almost looks at them as parents.

Kat’s relationship with Zameal is confusing for her. She has feelings for him that she doesn’t fully understand. Despite the wall he appears to put around himself, she still finds herself inexplicably drawn to him. She values his advice greatly, and more importantly, she values his prensence. When he is near, she feels more at ease, more secure.

Despite Kat’s pure nature, there is a beast inside her mind, a beast born of the genetic engineering and training. It is a beast that Kat is forced to tap into when fighting incredible battles, such as that in Eden’s Core. This beast is pure instinct and malice. It is an intelligent force bred for killing. Even in the heat of battle, Kat is able to keep the beast in check, and only tap into it when absolutely necessary. If her mind, though, is distracted or hampered in any way, the beast could exert control and unleash its powerful bloodlust, fully utilizing every ability Kat has to accomplish its purpose. If this happens, as soon as Kat’s mind is no longer distracted or hampered, it will always force the beast back, as her mind of purity is much stronger than that of the beast’s bloodlust.

Background:
The full details of Kat’s background are lost in mystery, known only to the Grey Lady, Queen Liadan of the Grey Moon. What Kat does know is that she, her brother, and her parents were on a trip when they were in an accident of some kind. She assumes her parents died in the crash. After that, she and her brother, Kevin, were captured by agents of Queen Liadan.

After their capture began a long period of tests, experiments, surgeries, training, and brainwashing. She and Kevin were being changed, forced to become machines of killing First. Eventually, she found the strength to escape. She doesn’t fully remember the escape as her beast had taken control for a time, all she knows is that she escaped.

Soon after her escape, she awoke on Eden, underneath a great oak tree, with no memory of her time or training on the Grey Moon. Wandering from the tree, she soon met Ellysand at a celebration for their new Empress, Honor’s Angel. Kat was introduced to the new Queen and her husband, the regal Millennium, and she was immediately awestruck by them. The two gods took her into their home and gave her a place to stay, accepting her into their lives unconditionally. She was even allowed access to the Hall of Destiny to meet the former Empresses of Eden, which was an event beyond description for her.

If the world was a perfect world, Kat would have wished for a happily ever after at that point. Alas, that was not to be the case. Millennium had to leave on the business of the gods and even Honor’s Angel had business off Eden to attend to. Kat, with their dragon, Maul, were left in charge of their twin daughters, Danae and Pixie.

Not long after they had left, one of the former Empress, Ryvius, appeared to Kat, asking her to find some eggs of power to keep them from falling into evil hands. Thus began a quest, not only of finding the eggs, but keeping the children safe as well. The quest was not an easy one, and it was on the quest that she had met and started to get to know Zameal. The end of the quest wasn’t a happy ending, either. A battle in the region known as the “Grey Area,” a battle which saw Maul become possessed by the power of the Grey Egg, and turn against them. The end of the battle, while successful, saw the loss of both Maul and Zameal’s friend, Meekar. Kat even lost something as she regained many of the memories that she had lost.

Both Honor’s Angel and Millennium had returned to Eden for this final battle, and things appeared to have deteriorated with them. Honor’s Angel gave up her title as Empress, took her children, and left Eden and Millennium also vowed not to return to Eden until he had regained his family. Just before the end of the battle, Kat was forced into taking the title of Empress for herself, in order to defeat the Allulei who threatened Eden’s safety. Despite not asking the title for herself, after the battle, she officially became Eden’s newest Empress, and Zameal became the newest Protector of Eden.

Time passed, and Kat struggled with the weight of her new crown. She missed Millennium and Honor’s Angel. She was thankful, though, that Zameal always seemed nearby. He always was on hand with helpful tips and advice, and his presence always comforted her as she faced difficult decisions.

This period of peace, though, was short lived. Queen Liadan had taken the opportunity to attack Eden. On top of that, it seemed like Eden itself began rebelling, apparently in danger of destroying itself. That fact soon became apparent when Millennium returned claiming that aspects of himself were inside Eden’s Core, but instead of keeping the planet safe, they were fighting each other, causing the upheavals in Eden.

When they arrived in the Core, Zameal had used the powers of the shadow, light and reality eggs to give her wings to fly. This somehow caused an unusual reaction within Kat’s body, changing her from the inside out. Kat doesn’t yet fully realize the extent of her new powers, but can feel the power coursing through her body.

During the escape from the core, Kat and a new arrival, a boy by the name of Lyroane, were somehow transported to a place known as The Void. There the two learned that Eden was slowly turning to stone, and they needed to find Queen Liadan to try to find out how to stop whatever was happening to Eden. In disguise, both Lyroane and Kat went to the Queen’s base on the Grey Moon. On the moon, though, they encountered more than they planned, others that looked like Kat and her brother, Kevin. This led to a fight in Queen Liadan’s throne room that left Kat unconcious.

When Kat woke up again, she was back on Eden’s Gate, and Eden had turned completely to stone. To make matters worse, the boy mentioned something about items that could lead to destruction if they were found by the wrong people. Kat knew she would have to find these items to prevent the destruction of Eden, and find a way to restore Eden from the stone.

Kat’s story was never completed. The plan was to restore Eden, but the story ended as the community started to fade. Despite that, her legacy lives on in Solandara and through me.

Giving Thanks

Happy Thanksgiving to you, my friends.

Today is Thanksgiving Day in the United States. When many Americans think of Thanksgiving, they think of family gatherings with turkey, stuffing, cranberry sauce and pumpkin pie. OK, yeah, your mileage may vary. At least that’s what it is for me and my family.

This year, it is hard to see what to be thankful for. I grieve when I see how Christians who are supposed to be spreading the love of Christ are lost in a cycle of hate and political machinations. The air traffic controllers and other government workers who went without pay. Innocents getting swept up in immigrant raids and children getting lost in the shuffle. Families torn apart. The very freedoms this country was founded upon being crushed by our leaders and the sycophants who believe their lies. I have to be honest, it’s so hard to find the compassion but I do anyway, because that is what God would want. I am more bitter, more jaded, than I’ve been in a long time, but I still hold on to the Truth. I still try to see the best in people, and try to leave the politics at the door as much as I can. The right and the left have both gone over the edge, and they’re taking the rest of us down with them.

So, with all that in mind, I want to take this time to stop looking at the negative in the world, and focus on what I’m thankful for. I encourage my friends to do the same. There’s too much hate, let’s turn our focus to love instead.

Despite the struggles we’ve been through, I’m thankful for my wife. She and I have been through so much, and continue to go through challenges. Yet, we remain committed to each other, and to God. We love each other, and we’re there for each other, in good times and in the bad. I’m thankful she knows me as Jessica, even though she isn’t ready to accept or validate.

I’m thankful for my friends in Second Life. The ones who saw me before I had a name. The ones who don’t know my true name, only the name of my avatar. The ones who know and validate the little girl. Every one has helped me in ways that are too difficult to express. I may not have found my voice yet, if it weren’t for you. Thank you.

I’m thankful for my job. I was told I’d never be good enough, but, praise the Lord, I went above and beyond what I was told I couldn’t do. Even though my new position didn’t come with a pay raise (and probably never will), I’m thankful for it. The experience it is giving me is invaluable, and the team I’m working with is one of the best I’ve had the privilege to work with. They know me only under the shadow, but they value me and affirm my abilities. On top of it all, what I’m doing will be able to help children in the future, and that alone is worth so much more than a pay raise or co-worker validation.

I’m thankful for my family,  and that I can still spend time with them. There’s no guarantee how much longer my parents will be around. My wife already lost her parents. Each moment is special and cherished. Our family is incredibly close. Yes, part of my reason for staying in the shadow is because of that relationship, but it is so important to me, I’m willing to make that sacrifice.

Most importantly, I’m thankful to God. People are failing me everywhere I look, but God has never failed me. He never will fail me. He has delivered me from darkness into light. Yes, I’m still living as the shadow, but that is not because of God. It is because of many other things. So, I don’t begrudge Him for that.

As my final word of thanks. I’m thankful I have a name. I am Jessica. For so long, I have been pushed down, ignored, and compartmentalized. Now, I am free. Little Jessica along with me. We have a voice, and we have a name. Yes, the shadow is still there, and I’m thankful for that as well. It’s not perfect, but the three parts are essential for me at this time. So, yes, I’m thankful.

And this may sound like an afterthought, but it isn’t. I’m thankful for you, my friends. Those who have read these entries and have chosen to see me as I am. You may not agree with my choices. You may think my faith is misguided. You may think I’m making a mistake living under the shadow. If you’re Christian, you may even think I’m walking a path of sin. Whatever you think, you are still here, still reading, and I’m thankful for that. God will be my judge, not man, and I continue to seek Him.

Thank you.

Solandaran Reflection: The World of Solandara

Welcome to Solandara, friends.

Solandara is a world that blends fantasy with steampunk. It is a world that was once held in peace by the Chimera and the Empress. It is a world that I now welcome you to enter.

Solandaran Reflection is a new series that I’m starting where I will share information about my new fantasy series. It will be a lot of behind-the-scenes information, but I will do my best to avoid spoilers, but if you want completely spoiler free, just skip over any entry that starts with Solandaran Reflection. Why am I sharing this here? Well, because it is still another window into who I am. The characters and the story say something about me, intentionally or unintentionally. I’ll let you decide where my inner muse is getting her information.

This is going to be a book series. The series is going to be broken into volumes of one or more books. The first volume is planned to be five books. This first series sets up the foundation for the world and revealing the stakes. It will have a solid ending that won’t leave any lose threads. There will be seeds for future books, but nothing that will disappoint if the series doesn’t continue. My reason for that is, if the first series fails, then I can end the series without regret if I wanted to. That said, I love writing, and I love how the current story is progressing, so I plan to continue, if only for my own gratification.

“Is this a kissing book?” – The Princess Bride

No, it isn’t a kissing book. At least not the first five books, and probably not others. Since I have no idea what comes after the first five, I can’t speak to the future. My books are character driven at the core. They are designed to get into the minds and motivations of the major players. I don’t want one-dimensional villains or cardboard heroes. I want to show my characters as complex and human, even if they’re of a different race. Tropes should be used wisely and with purpose. The characters and their reactions should be believable, even in the realm of fantasy.

So, with that in mind, where did Solandara originate?

My first real attempt at writing was a fantasy story that I started in 1989. I had the inspiration for it from the Nintendo game, Final Fantasy. The original. Four warriors of light, brought together, to save the world. Each warrior had a crystal symbolizing an element. Earth, fire, water, and air. Their journey transformed them, and they ultimately faced the enemy that had brought forth the elemental fiends that were destroying their world. Then, sprinkle in Dungeons & Dragons ideas, you have my original world of Karn.

Instead of having all my heroes together from the start, I was going to have them face their individual challenges and meet along the way. The first was meant to be the core protagonist. He was a prince and a reluctant hero. His younger sister was his driving catalyst, that helped spur him to action. She would join him on his quest. It was your typical “noble knight vs. evil wizard” trope, but for a 16 year old, what would you expect?

At the time, I wrote everything by hand on good old college ruled paper. It was the 80’s, after all. I had a computer, but I was often writing at school, so that just made sense. I don’t know how many pages I wrote, and I still have the three ring binders somewhere, but everything now is strictly memory.

Despite all the hard work, the story fizzled out. I had no real plot. I was just writing, and I wound up writing myself into a corner, so I let it fall by the wayside. Unfinished, but never forgotten.

Later, while I was working security, I started a new story, this one a science fiction story. This was not a “good vs. evil” story as my previous story. It was a galactic civil war, much like Star Wars, but without the space magic or the clear-cut good and evil. Both sides had their views and those views weren’t right or wrong. Both sides were good, and both were bad. But the story wasn’t about the war, it was about two people in the war. A sister and her brother, on opposite sides of the war, both believing they are correct. It was told from the sister’s point of view through a series of journal entries. I didn’t get far in it, because writing in the first person like that was very difficult, but I loved the concept. The idea that a story could be written about the characters, and that the characters are not inherently good or evil, but just making the choices they believe is best.

“Luke, you’re going to find that many of the truths we cling to depend greatly on our own point of view.” – Star Wars: Return of the Jedi

Now we move to the time when I was writing stories through a type of role playing on the comic book forum. I created a character who was an amnesiac female. Cliched, I know, but I did it because I didn’t really want to develop a full backstory for her immediately. Her backstory came about via a combination of ideas from how her role playing story evolved, and collaboration with the other players in the story. She is the one who became the Empress of the world, a role she didn’t really want. In a future Legacy Reflection, I will let you know more about her, but what’s important here, is the concept of an Empress saving the world came directly from this, which has its roots way back in the World of Karn.

The next step toward Solandara came after I had been in Second Life for a couple years. It was at a time I was doing the long commute on the bus from home to work. I had decided I would create a web comic using screen shots from Second Life. My avatar would be the main character, and my friends would be the supporting cast. Or I’d create other avatars to fill in the blanks. The name Solandara was derived from Gaelic, I believe, meaning Second Life. So, yeah, the name of the world came from the name of the virtual world that was my lifeline, and my main character was my avatar. Even more, one of the other major characters (which was an avatar I created) was named after the prince in the Karn story.

This first iteration of Solandara was started with a prophecy. A world being torn apart by elemental forces, and two shifters (shapeshifters) named Solan and Dara stood against them and saved the world, but vanished in the process. The last stand took place in a city called Atlantis, which disappeared from the world at the time. Now the gods are stirring, and a prophecy is spoken to a human prince and a furry fox queen from warring kingdoms. The prince is from an entirely human empire where technology is futuristic, and has a robot companion that has a female body (not sexualized). The queen is from a magical forest kingdom of furries. then there’s my character, on earth, who gets a necklace from her grandmother and winds up getting transported to the new world, discovering she’s a shapeshifter and is the prophesied savior of the world.

Making that was time consuming, complex, and practically unsustainable for me. So, I never even got to my character leaving earth. Despite that, the ideas were still there, and I felt I had some good ideas I could build from in the future.

“The good writer seems to be writing about himself, but has his eye always on that thread of the universe, which runs through himself and all things.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

Dungeons and Dragons. Final Fantasy. Second Life. Furries. Non-sexual stories. All those certainly seem to point to the fact that I was writing about myself. There are centralized themes core to myself, and core to the story. Things such as bringing peace, and flawed characters that are neither good nor evil on their own. Their choices make them who they are. All of that converged early this year as I began working on Solandara in earnest. I wanted to take elements from my past writing, and bring them together into a new tale. A character driven fantasy on an epic scale

I returned once more to the four elements, as I had in my original Karn story. I returned to the idea that there’s good and bad on both sides, but not quite as prominent as shown in the science fiction story. I returned to Solandara. I brought the Empress idea back to the forefront. I took ideas scattered throughout the years and threw them into a blender and built a new Solandara. No longer based in Second Life, it was now just a name to signify light and shadow. Now, I present to you the Mythology of Solandara.

In the beginning, there was only the void. From this emptiness emerged two opposing forces: Solan, the radiant God of Light, and Dara, the enigmatic Goddess of Shadow. They were not rivals, but reflections of each other. They were symbols of light and darkness as well as life and death. Their unity, not their opposition, gave rise to harmony. From their eternal bond, the world of Solandara was born.

To shape this new realm, Solan and Dara created the Titans, elemental beings of immense power, each embodying a force of nature and a season of the year:

Arra, the Titan Goddess of Air, brought breath and springtime, infusing the world with vitality, wisdom, and the winds of change. She sculpted the skies and gave rise to the Aranites, winged beings who live by riddles, artistry, and contemplation.

Dotan, the Titan God of Fire, ignited the summer with passion, invention, and the forge of progress. He kindled the world’s core and inspired the rise of the Dotarrans, individuals driven by innovation, conquest, and power.

Talam, the Titan God of Earth, laid the foundations of autumn, nurturing the land with patience, harvest, and enduring strength. He shaped the forests and mountains, and from his influence grew the Talassians, a peaceful people in communion with nature and guardians of balance.

Eske, Titan Goddess of Water, cloaked the world in winter’s embrace, guiding storms, introspection, and the mysteries of the deep. She filled the oceans with life and emotion, and beneath the waves, the Eskans emerged. They were a hidden people who dwell under the water, silently remembering history and sending prophetic warnings through dreams.

Together, the Titans sculpted Solandara into a realm of wonder. From their combined essence, life emerged in many forms. Among those forms were the Chimera, mystical beings born of all four elements, created by Solan and Dara to preserve the balance the Titans had established. To unify the peoples of Solandara, the gods appointed an Empress, a Chimera sovereign imbued with divine favor, chosen to rule with wisdom and grace.

For a time, harmony reigned. Under the Empress and the Chimera, the peoples of the Titans lived in relative peace. But as the Titans grew in power and pride, their unity fractured. Arra’s aloof wisdom clashed with Dotan’s fiery ambition. Talam’s patience was tested by Eske’s emotional tides. Disagreements turned to rivalries, and rivalries to war.

The resulting Titan War shattered the world. Elemental forces clashed with cataclysmic fury. Tempests tore the skies, infernos scorched the land, oceans surged in wrath, and the earth itself trembled. The peoples of the Titans, once unified, turned on one another, driven by elemental loyalties and fractured trust. All suffered equally in the chaos.

The Chimera, once guardians of peace, fought valiantly to restore order. But even they could not withstand the fury of the Titans. Their sanctuary, Atlantis, a shining beacon of harmony, magic, and progress, was lost. It vanished beneath the sea. In desperation, the surviving Chimera fled, and the world was left fractured and grieving.

Witnessing the failure of the Chimera, Solan and Dara finally intervened. With sorrow and resolve, they imprisoned the Titans within four celestial moons, each reflecting the essence of its captive: Arra in the white moon, Dotan in crimson, Talam in emerald, and Eske in blue. With the Titans sealed, the gods withdrew from the world, leaving behind a fragile peace and a world forever changed.

Yet all was not lost. A prophecy was whispered into the winds of time. It was a promise that when the bonds of the moons begin to fray and the Titans stir once more, a Chosen Chimera will rise. Born of all elements and bearing the lost legacy of the Empress, she will walk the path of trials and transformation. Through courage, wisdom, and sacrifice, she will restore the balance of Solandara.

Most dismiss the prophecy as myth. The Chimera are believed extinct, Atlantis a fable, and the Empress merely a tale for children. But as the moons wax and wane, and omens stir in the skies, some dare to wonder if the time of redemption has come. When the Chosen appears, and her trials complete, she will ascend as Empress, restoring what was broken and uniting the world once more.

So, there you have the mythology. Ties back to Karn. Ties to the Empress story-line from the comic book forums. Ties to the first iteration of Solandara. Wrapped together in a new package, ready to give to the world. And you, my friends, are able to share in the backstory and world-building before the book hits the digital shelves.

Legacy Reflection: Saja

Here we go again, friends.

Today brings another Legacy Reflection. I wasn’t sure whether to continue the series now or wait, but once I revisited Jas in my last entry, it felt wrong to move on without giving equal space to his mirror, Saja. These two characters were created together, shaped together, and exist as a kind of yin and yang within my old stories. Separating them would be an injustice. Their connection is just too symbolic of my inner struggles.

Jas began as my mask, my initials turned into a heroic male ideal. He represented everything I believed I had to be: noble, honorable, self-sacrificing, strong. I wrote him from the shadow, projecting what I believed I needed to be. Saja, however, was something else entirely. She was my initials reversed, with an added “a” to soften it into a feminine name. She began as a literal shadow ejected from Jas’ mind. Later, I reworked her into his twin sister, born alongside him but exiled for being “dangerous.” She was written as cruel, ruthless, and merciless. She was a threat that had to be locked away.

Looking back at this now, the symbolism here is overwhelming. I had no idea that I was writing my own internal battle. I’m not Saja, but she was my shadow’s fear. I’m not evil or dangerous. I grieve, I don’t hate. I was the forbidden woman to my shadow, famed through the lens of my religious upbringing, family expectations, social pressures, and the terror of being seen. It was easier for my shadow to make her a villain than to admit she was me.

With that context, here she is, exactly as I wrote her all those years ago.

The White Witch

Race: First
Sex: Female
Age: Appears to be in early 20’s
Height: 5’8″ (1.75m)
Hair: White
Eyes: Black
Skin: White

Father: Meteoro, God of Falling Rocks
Mother: Jasmin, Queen and Goddess of the Realm of Nightmares and Goddess of Law and Blind Justice
Twin Brother: Jas, God of Truth and the Mind
Adoptive Father: King James, Immortal Ruler of England on Kenos

Appearance:
Saja’s skin and hair are pure white, while her eyes are as black as the night. She often wears a skin-tight black leather outfit.

Personality:
Saja is evil and cruel to the core. Mercy and compassion are completely foreign to her. She hates her family most out of everyone. She believes she has been abandoned and exiled to Kenos, in favor of her twin brother, and nothing could convince her differently. The only person she has slight bit of respect for is her adoptive father, King James, who raised her.

Powers:
Telepathy: With her telepathy, she can read minds and communicate telepathically. On Kenos, this power is limited to be more empathy than full telepathy. Her empathy, though, would be strong enough to sense intentions, lies, and the like.

Telepathic Command: Using her telepathy, she can force others to do what she says. On Kenos, this power just makes people a little more suggestible.

Fear Aura: There is an aura of fear that surrounds Saja. It would typically make weak willed people run in fear. On Kenos, this power is greatly diminished, so that people will feel uncomfortable or afraid in her presence, but not necessarily overpowering fear.

Mist Form: Saja is able to change her body and equipment to a white mist, able to move at will, without need for air. This power is lessened on Kenos, so that she can become almost ghost-like, but cannot move in ways she couldn’t normally.

Background:
Saja was born on Starron, holding the heel of her twin brother Jas. Even in the womb, she was fighting with her brother. After she was born, though, her mother, Jasmin, felt it would be best to get rid of Saja. Not wanting to kill her, though, she gave Saja to Isabel to take to someplace safe, where she could never be a danger to her family or the rest of the First.

Isabel took Saja away from Starron, taking her to a world stuck outside of time and space, Kenos. She gave Saja to the Immortal King of England, King James. James used to be a Dexter First known for being able to bring order to situations that were completely out of control. While he no longer had his First abilities, Isabel thought his strength of character would be ideal to raise Saja, who would be extremely difficult to handle. Isabel told James the truth about Saja, her family, and why she was being sent there. He agreed to raise her with a firm hand.

Isabel left Kenos, leaving James and Saja trapped on Kenos. James had changed in his centuries of being trapped, almost mortal, on Kenos. He raised Saja with knowledge of her family, and told her that she had been banished by her mother in favor of her twin brother. James didn’t restrain her, but used her unique abilities to help him keep his order in England and the colonies. Eventually, Saja became known and universally feared as King James’ white witch and assassin. No one knew that she was raised as his daughter, only that she was very important to the king, and very dangerous to the king’s enemies.

The White Witch was my villain, but she was never truly evil. She was the part of me that my shadow was terrified of. It was the feminine energy I wasn’t allowed to claim. It was the identity that my shadow had to exile “for everyone’s safety.” She was the girl who had to be locked away because my shadow didn’t yet understand that she was me.

Thank you for exploring these echoes of my past with me.

Until next time, friends.